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    Are You Decaying or Growing? Podcast #2 Transcript

    Fri, Mar 21, 2008

    Freaked Out & 40

    Power Aging

    Monday was my birthday.

    I turned 44.

    In some ways it was a milestone for me.

    I've spent the past few years accepting and adjusting to the fact that I'm not getting younger – I am no longer the glowing girl of my youth who got asked for ID into my early twenties and hated being called cute.

    I've dealt with symptoms of mid life crisis – who I am and how did I get here questions.

    Questions about what I could have done better with my life – and where did the time go.

    I never would have imagined that it would pass by so fast.

    Dealing with death, something I never was faced with in my younger years. And the empty places that death leaves. And the odd progression as I get "bumped" up as each generation passes.

    The good news is that with this birthday, I seem to have hit a crossroads.


    I made the choice to grow, rather than decay.

    I remember the first time I considered the concept – that with each passing year I seemed to be no longer waiting with anticipation to see what would happen – but looking back and wondering what did happen.

    Looking at myself and resigning to decay, even though I was only in my early 40's.


    Too young to grow old in my way of thinking.

    Around that time I had injured my back and spent about 1 year in recovery.

    For the better part of that year I couldn't bend over, couldn't lift – I had to ask my kids to pick things up off the floor for me – or spend a painful 5 minutes doing it myself.

    I couldn't lift my leg without helping with my arms to put on my socks.

    I had to position myself to slowly roll out of bed in the morning.

    Some days it took a few minutes to get the courage to try.

    Other days, I feared that instead of getting better, that I would get worse and that one day I wouldn't be able to get out of bed in the morning.

    The inactivity caused weight gain and wasting of muscles, which only made me feel older, even though I was already moving around like a senior.

    Then as I started to finally heal, I found myself using my back and stomach muscles to bend over and lift myself up instead of walking myself back up my legs with my arms.

    It felt like a miracle.


    One day I happened to be at the hairdressers who owned the gym in our small town.

    I had thought about joining for a long time before my injury, even took a tour, but let fear keep me from it.

    Sitting there getting my hair done, I heard a few ladies discussing a spring fitness challenge that was going on at the gym, starting right away.

    The syncronisity of this event was amazing as hair appointments are things that I don't make nearly enough of,  and the fact that they were discussing the challenge within earshot was to my great fortune.

    I went over, saw a girl I knew who looked amazing and thought, this is definitely working for her, I'll give it a shot – and I did.

    This started e back on the road to recovery.

    I went to the gym regularly and LOVED it. It was me time. Relaxing. Fun.

    I adjusted my eating habits as well and lost 11 lbs and toned up.

    I felt younger and looked better than I had 10 years earlier – ie – after kids.

    Then, as good fortune had smiled on me – it quit smiling and the gym closed.


    I knew it would take resolve to stick to my routines and new habits with no support system.

    I set up interval stations in my house and used them for a few months.

    Then although I was staying fit, with no support system or accountability, I started to doubt myself and slowly let my new habits slide.

    Fast forward 2 years later.

    5 lbs heavier, loss of muscle tone and feeling old and frumpy again.


    Then one day while I was searching the internet for a home fitness program – I found "the one".

    I read it over and knew it would be good because it was made for moms, like me.

    Today, I am so happy that I made the decision.

    It's so much more than weight loss or fitness.

    Using the program – called Fit Yummy Mummy – I have taken off some inches and about 4lbs of the 10 I wanted to lose.

    I'm seeing signs of muscle tone returning.

    But that has turned out to be only the beginning of my transformation.

    I am regaining faith in myself.

    I'm once more looking ahead.


    Sounds trivial, but the truth is that it's a sign of hope.

    It's a sign that I feel good enough to bother. 

    Have any of you given up on new clothes, nice jewelery or getting your hair done because it just doesn't seem to matter anymore? 

    What difference would it make if everything underneath is falling apart anyway?

    Guess what?

    It's time to pull it all back together again.

    This year, my birthday was the best ever because I felt good being exactly who I am.

    I wasn't thinking that I'll feel good after I lose the next 5 lbs or when I can fit into a smaller size.

    I feel good today.

    And that's because I'm heading in the right direction.

    I'm taking action.

    I'm succeeding – taking the reins of my own life back.

    It feels great.

    The really good news is that if I can do it – you can do it.

    No matter what your age or what your goals are.


    I have realized that being frumpy at 40 was my own doing – it had nothing to do with my age.

    No, I will never look 20 again.

    But I don't need to look 10 years older than I am either.

    I can look good for my age – a phrase that I used to hate!

    But when I think about it – what's so back about looking good for your age – it's actually an awesome compliment.

    If I truly wanted, or thought that I could be 20 again, I'd be running into problems because that is unrealistic, but aiming to be the best that I can be gives me a large space for improvement – one that I can fill.

    And that has been the best lesson so far.

    If it is to be, it's up to me. Totally.

    The years of giving up saw me get nowhere.

    The short weeks that I have made the choice to do what's right for my body – and to grab onto the change in my mindset with both hands – has seen more improvement than I ever would have thought possible.

    I've lost 4 lbs on the scales, but I've lost about 100lbs off of my shoulders.

    If you're feeling like you'd like to get your body back – and regain your health and vitality – give Holly and her Fit Yummy Mummy program a chance.

    If you are over 40 and are thinking that it's too late. It's not. Not by a long shot.

    There is even a 40 and Fabulous group at Club FYM.

    It's not just the exercise, the videos, the nutritional support information – or the information on lifestyle changes – it's Holly and her caring self who makes you feel worthy from day 1 – and it's the fellow Fit Yummy Mummy's there cheering you on and going through the program with you.


    You can make the choice today whether or not to live your life with joy, being the best you can be – or you can let fear and self doubt shut you down.

    You can take the opportunity and celebrate a new you on your birthday. Or you can feel like you are a year closer to the grave.

    If an out of shape, out of control, slightly depressed and weepy regular girl like me can do it, I have no doubt that you can do it.

    And it's not just me.

    There is a whole group of over 100 ordinary women who are seeing extraordinary results – looking better and more importantly – feeling better.

    I hope that you embrace the chance to be your best self – and that I'll see you on the Fit Yummy Mummy program, no matter what your age. 

    You can see my progress and updated pictures here.

    Fit Yummy Mummy Transformation Challenge Updates

    You can listen to the podcast version here

    Growing or Decaying Sizzlin' Podcast #2

    Get with the Fit Yummy Mummy Lifestyle and find out firsthand what I'm talking about!

    Fit Yummy Mummy Fitness and Weight Loss for Moms

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    It is definitely the time of year to be getting back on board with a Fit Yummy Mummy 12 Week Challenge – I am counting down the days to being 10lbs lighter and 12 weeks stronger!

    Holly gives us assignments throughout the challenge, today it is to examine perfection and the effect that it has on our results – and how it can more likely than not cause more trouble than it saves. I am looking at that today.

    How about you. Has perfection ever brought you down in your efforts to lose weight or get healthier?